Today, I wanna write about how and what I really feel. I’m 32 years old and a PLHIV for more than 2 years now. My life has changed a lot since I become a poz, you could say that i’ve become more health conscious and I have obtained peace of mind to some extent, have I? LOL
I guess it’s already a fact that there will be gaps in my career because of the times that I had to quit my job due to my illness. This is something that I wanted to avoid but this is inevitable due to my recurring asthma condition, i’m just blessed that the only illness I have for now after the PTB last year is this Asthma. So I quit my job again…two weeks ago. It was a personal decision, I couldn’t contain the stress that I am getting from my employer so decided to quit just like that. So i’m officially a bum again. hahaha. It has its perks mind you. After two weeks of resting I am now feeling better again, and my mother noticed that I am looking less stressed, which is good. Financially, I don’t know, i’m broke. again. Not really sad nor am I happy but then shit happens. Good thing dad and siblings are there to support. Though, they still don’t know my condition. Support group friends online are saying wait for the right time. Is there a perfect time for disclosing such status? “Hey family, I have HIV and I’ve been hiding this condition from all of you for more than 2 years now. Okay let’s move on. No questions please.” Hahaha. I would have done it from the start if it were that easy.
So what’s bothering me now? Should I go back working in the usual real world that I am used to or should I try something new? I know my 2015 is not wasted, at least for now. I still have seven months before the end of 2015. I just need that career change that will not caused challenges to my health and will sustain my needs. Hoping for the best!
What are your thoughts?